My word for this year, is “miss out.”
Not, “no.” Not, “say yes to the best.” Because I’ve done those things.
Every week I say no to opportunities, obligations, events, requests.
But it’s not enough.
The last three months I have been living my dream life. My dream town. My wonderful family. My dream job. But my life is so full of “the best” I don’t have time to savor it.
My nose is barely above the water, and I feel I am drowning in things I love.
This year I want to enjoy what I have. Get used to embracing the pit of my stomach turn from missing out on a business opportunity, a great vacation, and family obligation.
Exchange it for rest.
I feel paralyzed when I look back at the year and see such a large pile of great things.
It seems like there is nothing to cut out of my life, but I can’t keep going like this. I can’t keep doing every “best” that passes my way.
I want to experience missing out to the fullest this year. And I want to have the bandwidth to fully absorb the joy of what remains. I don’t want to spend another year trying to hold myself together long enough to get through one blessing and onto the next one.